Perplexed

... things which seem to take you away from yourself and then you find yourself in this oblivion; unimportant and unwanted.

The mind deviates, runs fast, turns around - upside down & nothing seems right... how could it seem right... you got to be placed right for that!

Thoughts, vision, speech - everythin's blurred. You feel the world's started to hate you! You cry out loud inside, "i am the same one... i am good... forgive me for all the things i have done wrong...". But its not heard. It just stays put inside. On a random day, the screech comes out in some form and makes things worse! Its not deliberate... its not wicked... its human... it really is.

... not easy. Sudden realization of the vastness of life, the complexity of being, the intricacy of relationships. You tend to get pulled back to the past - the sunny days and the hearty laughs, the stupid jokes and the serious talks, the togetherness and the being apart.

... and then i start singing... perceiving things are in place... everything's all right... i have a chance... but the moment doesnt last long... i dont mind living in that moment endlessly, looping infinitely... but there's always an 'exit' and i have to leave the moment...

Hope... is all that is. Belief... is what should be. i hope... and i believe. Dont ask me why... cause i will jus say that its meant to be!

~me